I Have An Apartment

And I'm tired of being in my car. And I might be a bit crazy. So I was really not attached to this idea of a house where I will have a twin size bed for the next 13 weeks and essentially no TV in my room. I didn't really mind sharing the rest of the house with other people but I want a bigger bed and I want to be able to watch TV. I called my recruiter this morning and he said he had checked out the local SB Extended stay hotel and it was 80 dollars a night (and that is only if I agree to stay there for 13 weeks). Not an option. So I happened to pull up Cra*igs list again. There was a new listing for a studio apartment with a full kitchen for 975 a month and that includes all utilities. Except cable but I can handle that. Not as close to the hospital but I don't care. It's unfurnished, he was ok with my cats, he was ok with only a 3 month lease, the deposit was less than any of the other places I had looked at. The only problem in this whole scenario: He wouldn't rent to me sight unseen. He said he's done that before and then had to give money back etc. My thought was I'm desperate it would have to be a pretty nasty place for me to not want it. He wouldn't budge. He told me I could come down tomorrow with my stuff and he'd get me moved in no problem. Except, he could rent it to someone else between now and then. So, can you all guess what I did next???? Yup. I drove back to Sant*a Bar*bara. I feel like I have spent more time in my car this week than I have at home. Anyways, I paid the deposit, the apartment is fine. It's bigger than the one I had looked at on Tuesday and seems a bit nicer. It still has old brown carpet but again, I don't really care. I did also get a bunch more packing and some cleaning done this morning before I left while I was waiting for Fedex to bring my PIO shot stuff.
As far as all the other stuff. I'm keeping busy enough I haven't had much time to fall apart. I'm trying really hard not to let my mind wander to far down the path of I'm pregnant. I tried to think/dream about anything other than that. Even went so far as fantasizing about how it would be so great to meet mister right. Cause that's easier than thinking about the other stuff. Trying not to wonder about symptoms too but not doing as well there. My boobs still don't hurt. My bra however felt a teensy bit tighter today. I also noticed today that if I go to long without eating it actually starts to feel almost like I'm nauseous. I'll take it. Oh and the smell thing. Oh my God the smell of cow shit is making me crazy, it's everywhere.