Tis The Season

For holiday parties.  In the past I have always loved holiday parties. Lately though I find it difficult to force myself to take part and socialize.  Taking part when you don't know anyone? Sort of like torture. This year there were a couple holiday parties. One is a big corporate thing that I'm told is a dressy event. The other was just a unit event done by the doctors on our unit.  The big dressy event I've pretty much said no thank you. I don't have proper attire for it, I don't love clothes shopping and I spent nearly everything available on the car. The smaller event I did figure it would be good for me to go. It was good to go and to meet people and visit.  The first hour was torture but it did get better and I did notice that a lot of people made an effort to talk to me which was appreciated. It strikes me though that I'm not entirely sure how I went from being a very outgoing social person when I was younger to a very introverted and rather untrusting person I am now. 

All I know is I'm home now in my jammies with kitties on my lap and so much more comfortable. 

Plan B

So. 

I bought a car yesterday. The car. The fruition of my plan B when I gave up TTC. I LOVE it! I'm just so excited although driving home from the dealership I wanted to scream at everyone to back away from the car! Here is my new car. I haven't figured out what her name is yet. 

The plan right now is for Scooby (my older car) to go to my sister.  I'm honestly having a few doubts about that at the moment for various reasons. There is so much happening in her life and so much drama. Also a lot of "I don't know what to believe." So for now I guess I will wait and see. 

I did finally receive another email from my birth mother. She seems nice although maybe a little socially awkward? It's funny the superficial things we seem to have in common. Things like the love of all things bright and colorful. With so many other things in life I'm working to just be present in the now and not have expectations. Not an easy thing but I think I'm getting better at it. 

Otherwise things are good. I'm back to work and my hand is healed up fairly well. Work seems good and while it's always a challenge to change jobs I really like where I'm at and feel like it will be a fabulous experience.