And One More Time

I did get registered for a statistics class here in Fresno to the amount of $204.00.  I think I wish I had just went that way to begin with.  This will be my third attempt at statistics and by the time I'm done this damn class will have cost me close to $2000.  Crap.  I'm also going to likely end up taking my other classes at the same time through the university I've been working through.  Still not sure I'm super impressed with their program but I have no desire to go elsewhere and start over.  Hell, I don't even really have a desire to finish except looking at other NICU jobs around the state most of them state you need a BSN to apply.  So if I can manage the two classes at a time without wanting to rip my hair out (hey, homework seriously cuts into my quilting time!) from January through May I might still manage to graduate in October.  I'm thinking a trip to Disneyland at Halloween might be my treat to myself for finishing. 
Interestingly in talking about this, potential moves in the future etc with my therapist when I really stop to look at what I'm looking for or wanting, I think I may end up staying in Fresno.  I feel at home here.  Granted I don't love the heat in the summer but I manage. I could afford to buy a home here.  I could maybe even afford to work less hours here and buy a home if I budget well.  So after I finish paying for my cheapest I can find school stuff I guess I need to start saving for a down payment on something to call my own.

Now What

I really should post here more often.  On my last post I stated I was going to stay off FB for like 5 days and I think I made it 4.  I also ended up flunking the statistics test.  I walked in to the test and seriously had no idea how to answer any of it.  I left 90% of the test blank.  I knew from the beginning an online math class would be a challenge for me but I thought I could do it.  I also knew that even though I was getting the correct answers on most of the problems at least at first I didn't know how I was getting the correct answers and that it may catch up with me eventually.  Yes, it did. 
Did I put my absolute best effort into the class? Probably not but the class was not a great set up for learning.  The teacher essentially did not teach.  We had an e-textbook and class material that was put together by the publishers of the e-textbook.  The book had audio examples throughout that "explained" how to do the problems.  Most of those explanations included "use technology to figure out this problem, we'll use statkey."  Statkey was an online program where they had the data already listed in and it would compute stuff automatically.  Problem was we couldn't use statkey in the exams.  We had a calculator that had a 319 page instruction manual.  For the most part the book never did show or teach the formulas or equations for figuring out the answers so there was no way to really figure out how to do the problems manually.  Then the tests looked nothing like the homework assignments. 
So overall I'm hugely unimpressed with this class and it's made me look a bit more at the program as a whole.  The RN to BSN program I chose was the cheapest and required the least amount of extra class work.  Right now it feels a bit like the saying you get what you pay for is very true.  I've talked to others who are doing online programs and they have a lot more direction than what I've had so far with mine.  Down side is that they are also paying considerably more money than I am.  I'm not in a position where I can take out further student loans right now and I'm not sure I want to.  I hate the idea of going into debt and paying close to $20,000 for a bachelors degree that for the most part isn't going to affect my current job at all. My biggest reason for deciding to get my bachelors degree was that I figured at some point down the road I would  need it.  I still think that is possibly true although I know that I have no intention of going into management and really don't have any desire to become a nurse practitioner either.  I know though that there is a big push for all RN's to have a bachelors degree although its a long ways from requiring it.
So I don't really know what I'm going to do.  Right now I'm trying to get registered for a statistics class here in Fresno at a community college where I have an actual class to go to.  I've been told that it might be a slim chance I will actually get into a class.  I've looked at a few of the other programs and probably need to request more info.  I also still have the option of finishing with the current program and just having my statistics grade transferred in when it's done.  Either way it's all frustrating.