What To Do (yes this is likely going to be a long post)

I need to talk some things out here and would consider any assvice so here goes. Sorry for such a long post.
So when I went home in January to take some stuff home I did so during the TWW after my IVF and did so hoping immensely that I was knocked up and it would stick. I told myself that if that were the case, I would likely do one more contract and then go home. However I also told myself that if that weren't the case and I wasn't pregnant (therefore less likely to be heading home) I needed to look at my situation at home a little more closely. I currently have a house sitter living in my house, taking care of my dog. The money he is to pay me for rent, covers most of the utilities. I kept the cable internet etc because I didn't want to lose my e-mail and he uses it etc, same with TV services. In the winter it all came out to be a bit more than what he should have been paying. Now I don't want to sound awful here. I do appreciate what he has done and is doing for me. And I know that he is doing quite a bit in taking care of my dog for me. However since he's been there he has had several instances of being unemployed or seasonally employed. And there have been several months that he hasn't been able to give me the full rent, or any rent at all. I was mostly ok with it since I do realize he was having a hard time, and that he was doing me a really big favor even as I was doing him a really big favor. Plus it left my house mostly as is from when I left it, therefore I could pick up and go home at any time. And while I was telling myself it would be soon I was ok with all of that. Lately though my feelings are changing a little. It's not that I'm upset with him or resentful. It's just that I no longer know when I'm going home. I'm not even entirely sure I want to go home. See I have discovered that I really like this part of California. A lot. And there are only a couple of people that I feel the need to go home for. I have some family in that area (aunts and uncles) but for the most part these are people I exchange Christmas cards with. They do not go out of their way to be a part of my life. Granted I don't either but this is partly related to their lack of involvement. I love them, we just don't spend time together. I have my ex-boyfriend whom I'm still friends with and enjoy visiting with when he's sober there. I would miss him some but I can still (and do) visit with him over the phone and it's a lot easier to get rid of him on the phone when he's trashed than when he's standing in my living room. Then I have his mom and her husband. Now these are the two people I would/do miss the most from home. Jan is like my surrogate mom. She's the mom I don't have in my own mom. She was the one who helped me through school and is the one who has been there for me for at least the last 8 years. I truly don't know what I would do without her. I do still however speak to her often which while not quite as good as sitting in her kitchen shooting the breeze, is still a good thing. I also know I can go visit whenever I want. I do miss my stuff which may sound sort of stupid because it's just things but I miss having my craft projects handy, I miss my favorite comfy chair, I miss my kitchen stuff that makes my life easier and just makes me happy cause it's pretty. Another thought on going home now is that if I were to go home now I know that the job market in Spokane is kind of sucky. Yes I could get a job doing what I'm doing now, but I don't want to. I would have to take care of more patients at home, with fewer if any nurses aides and way less pay, like less than half of what I make here. I have been watching and I haven't seen any jobs that interest me at home at all. So for now, since I really prefer to work med/surg in a hospital in California where I have much better staffing ratios and I'm making much better money, and since I really like it here a lot, I'm content to stay where I am. I really don't know when I plan to go home. Even if I was to get pregnant next month (probably not likely) I would probably stay here and continue to work here as long as I could. It's easier that way with insurance stuff etc and I'm making better money. So, as much as I appreciate the house/dog sitter, it no longer seems like a very cost effective option. I am basically paying close to a thousand a month in a house payment for my dog to live there. I could do a lot more as far as IF stuff with a thousand a month. So I am planning to rent out my house at home. That isn't my favorite option either, I'd rather just sell it but the market of course sucks and even if I could sell it, I would lose quite a bit of money on it. So I figure if I hire a management company to manage the property and rent it out, that will be that much more money I'm not spending on housing I'm not living in. I will however have to go home and pack up my house and move it into storage. That also seems over whelming but I still think it's the better option. Another reason for this is that I would feel less guilty spending more money on housing here. When I was trying to get ready to come down here from Fresno I was having a difficult time finding a place and ended up taking what I could find without having the time to look around at what I wanted. I was a bit desperate. What I found has been ok, but it's awfully small. I don't have any room for a chair etc to sit in to watch TV or whatever. Only my bed which while that sounds ok, it quickly gets old. I have maybe 1.5 foot square piece of counter top. I have almost no storage. It is cheap and it's been fine for being here for now but I can't imagine spending a year here in this apartment. I don't like it that well. I get a certain amount of money each month for housing that so far I've never even come close to spending that much on housing. I have figured out that if I don't mind commuting a bit farther (yes I have thought about the gas prices) I can get a lot more housing for my money in Ven*tura. Also the whole lease thing doesn't seem to be as big of an issue nor does the pet thing there. So, I've been watching Cra*igs list for possible apartments. And found a small house that I love. And the timing really isn't great. Yes I could afford it now, without difficulty although the deposit is pretty steep but she is willing to work with me and let me pay that over time. And yes I could probably find an apartment a little cheaper that would still fit my needs fine, but this is a house. With a deck in the back yard which is a fenced back yard although a very, very, very small back yard. And an orange, lemon, peach, walnut and avocado tree in the front yard. And a dining room, living room, bathroom, bedroom and kitchen (with counters). And she did mention that she would let me have Sadie there although I am considering that having Sadie with me isn't necessarily the best thing for her with my schedule etc. I have considered asking J (house sitter) who loves her to pieces if he would like to keep her as he is able and does spend a lot more time with her although I don't know how that would work since I'm going to be asking him to find alternate living arrangements. So I'm trying to decide if I should just go for it and rent the house which I can afford but it wouldn't leave much for TTC money for the next month or two until I can get my house rented. And I know I should probably wait, and likely even will but oh this house is so cute.
And yes I do realize in myself a tendency to allow myself to fall into or walk into situations that are stressful.