winter time in the NW

Well, it's been a long last few days, or week I guess. I worked last week 6 nights in a row, my last being the night before Thanksgiving. When I got off work on Thanksgiving morning, I came home, slept for 2 hours then went to my chosen family's house for Thanksgiving. Then Saturday I left for Seattle to visit my best friend and then I was supposed to work 3 nights at a hospital over there as a traveling nurse. I worked the first night and it went well, then the second night, they cancelled my shift. I left my motel room to go get some dinner and it started snowing shortly after I left. It took me almost 4 hours to go about 8 miles to the store, get some food and find a way back to my motel room. Yuck. Then I started getting nervous as to what the mountain pass would be like to get home on Wednesday. So, I called the agency I work for, apologized profusely and told them I wouldn't be available Tuesday night as I was leaving for home. It took me a while to get out of Seattle as all the roads were like ice skating rinks but once I got out of Seattle the going wasn't too bad and so now I am safely home in Spokane. Of course now the problem is that the traveling job was supposed to be my second job to pay off bills and now I think it's fairly evident that this isn't going to be much of an option for the winter months. Granted I was entirely sure that it was going to work as I didn't know how cost effective it would be going over there, staying in a motel etc compared to what I would be making. But I'm really feeling like I won't be ready to start ttc in February like I had planned. My bills might be paid down/off but there wouldn't be any savings to fall back on and I really think that is going to be a neccessity. I'm bummed about that, but not quite as much as I had thought. I know that I won't ever have EVERYTHING paid off but I do feel a need to have as much as possible paid off since right now there is no way I could afford daycare etc. Plus I do feel like I need to have at least some savings as I will quite possibly end up having to take extra time off work. Another thing is that part of the reason I had moved my date to start ttc up to Feb. is that I wanted a Christmas baby (and I'm anxious to get started). My best friend whose birthday is a couple days before Christmas told me that she has never liked having her birthday that close to Christmas as has everyone else with a December birthday whom I've asked. So I had originally planned to start ttc in June, then changed to Feb. Now I'm looking at April or so. That's kind of a happy medium in between. Now if only I could acheive some patience. Haha. I'm obsessed with the whole prgenancy idea, I absolutely can't wait to be pregnant. But I will have to. Of course I may change my mind again but we'll wait and see what happens.