Oh yes, and I am feeling better

I realized after reading the comments from my previous blogs that I hadn't posted anything about how I'm doing with the whole feeling discouraged. I'm doing a lot better and thank you all for asking. A couple days after my encounter with nurse doomsday I sat down and had a chat with another co-worker who is also somewhat of a larger woman and whom I knew had some complications with her pregnancy. I talked to her about my plans, asked about what complications she had etc and I did end up feeling a lot better. I'm not worried about the gestational diabetes anymore as I know how to take care of it and control it with diet and know what happens if I don't so I will be super vigilant in taking care of myself. I also know that since I do have chronic hypertension I will have a higher risk of pregnancy induced hypertension. However, I also plan to take care of myself as much as possible prior to pregnancy and during pregnancy and feel this is something that can be managed. My doctor wasn't worried about it so I'll deal with it. I may end up on bed rest for a while (hence my feeling that I need a savings account just in case) and if I end up having the baby early, at least I know the nurses and doctors who will be taking care of my baby really well and know that my baby will get the best possible care. So, all is good now. Just figuring out the timing of when to start. I still would love Feb. but may be good and wait until April. Of course, patience isn't really my strong suit once I get something in my mind.