Hot Here

It's so hot here my AC has laughed at me today. I have it set for 74 and the temp in my apartment is 77 and that's with it running all the time. Yuck.
My life is feeling a bit again like it's in limbo land. When I knew my contract was almost up here I told my recruiter to start looking for something else for me. I considered the Bay Area just because it was still close enough that I could drive here for appointments to see the doctor if I needed to. I knew it was more expensive to live there but I guess I hadn't counted on how much more expensive. I went down yesterday to look at potential places to live and the only one I found that was an option was $1500 a month which is double. This is frustrating for several reasons. I had figured that I could save enough for my next IVF in about 3 months time. However if I'm paying this much for rent, it's not going to happen. It would take 6 months and lets face it, at 38 my ovaries aren't getting any younger. Plus if I'm going to be paying that much rent, I know I won't stay for more than one contract which means that in 3 months I will be doing the moving thing again and coming up with deposits etc which has gotten pretty expensive. I also realized that I had left SB which was a contract I loved at least in part because of the cost of housing and that I couldn't save with it being that high. So to take another contract where the costs are similar just seems silly. If I was going to pay that much for housing I would much rather go back to SB. I also had the realization that I'm not really enjoying traveling that much right now. So basically I'm only doing it for the money at the moment and if I'm doing it for the money than I need to actually be making enough money for it to be worthwhile. I want to do something different. I want to be trained in a new area which most likely won't happen as a traveler. I dread another contract right now just because this one has been so bad. Granted I know that if I was to get another contract that was good and that I liked I would probably feel better but I keep finding myself wishing for or wanting a "travel" position that I like well enough to stay put for 6-9 months. I'm tired of moving every 3 months. So I told recruiter that I really didn't want the position because of the cost of housing thing. He of course decided he needed to fix it by finding me housing that was affordable. Whatever. I suppose if they did find something that was reasonable I would still take the position. Otherwise I'm ready to start looking elsewhere. I don't know if my recruiter realizes how stubborn I can be once my mind is made up. So I guess I'll see what happens. But I don't think I'm going to the bay area next.