Another Excuse To Shop?

So I have the job interview in Fresn0 coming up next week. I realized the other day that I have NOTHING to wear to the interview. I did not bring any dress, skirt, nice pair of pants that aren't denim or anything along those lines with me to California. I know I could possibly get away with wearing my scrubs but all of my scrub shirts have some sort of various cutsie print which while I love them for work isn't really the image I want to portray for an interview. So today I went shopping. And this isn't really the fun type of shopping either. This is shopping for an outfit I may never wear again or that I will wear only to other job interviews. Lets face it, I don't exactly have a hopping social life that would require/allow me to wear something that would qualify as business attire. I did however find an outfit that I really liked and it wasn't too expensive so I have something to wear for my interview and any other interviews I may have in my future. Now I just need some shoes. I think I'll hit Pay*less and go for cheap since I will only be wearing the shoes maybe once or twice. As far as the job interview? It's next Monday. I'm driving down to Fresn0 on Sunday and will probably go have dinner with a friend there and maybe swim in her pool. I'm still sort of nervous about the job interview or the job maybe. I'm ok with Fresn0. I lived there for 9 months and liked it except for the heat. The heat admittedly does suck. I'm also nervous about the position. It's NICU. I left NICU a little over a year ago. Part of the reason why I left was because the idea of doing vents etc sort of really freaked me out. This was largely due to the fact that I doubted myself a lot. I felt like I didn't know enough to take care of the sickest babies, like I would do something wrong and the baby would die. I was scared of having parents asking me lots of questions and that I wouldn't be able to answer them. I also was really broke and wanted to do travel nursing for a while and couldn't do it as NICU with my short term experience. I don't regret doing the travel thing but looking back I know that I understood and knew a lot more than I gave myself credit for and that honestly I was never "alone" in that I always had co-workers who could answer my questions. I've told myself for a while now that some day I wanted to go back and give NICU a try again. I just hadn't figured it would be so soon. I had sort of figured on this happening after I had children. But yet I feel like I do want to try again. It just scares me too. I'm afraid of not being good enough. Then again I suppose this has been my fear my entire life so maybe I just need to plunge ahead and just do it without thinking about it much which gives me time to get scared. I know that I could likely go to other hospitals and get staff positions in different areas and skip the whole NICU thing right now but the thing about Fresn0 is the sign on bonus. I've been looking around and haven't found anything else that's similar to this in the state of California. The sign on bonus could finance another cycle or more depending on what I do. The money there is good and it's one year. I've already spent almost that much time there and liked it. I would have to come back up here for doc visits as I refuse to go back to the asshole there. I could/would do that though if I had to. So next week I'll interview and see what happens and go from there.
Another thing of interest happened today also. The doctors office called me to let me know what they had found out from my insurance about infertility treatments. I have $2000 lifetime benefit for IUI or IVF and $1500 lifetime benefit for meds. Not a huge amount but more than I had on my last coverage. This leaves me wondering how fast I could scrape up the remaining amount for an IVF and do it at the end of the contract here. I don't know if it's possible or not but it's a thought.
I'm hoping to be able to go back to work this week. I really want to go back to work even if I don't really want to go back to this particular job. The physical therapy seems to be working wonders for me and my neck has gotten so much better in the last few days. So hopefully they will release me to full duties when I go back to the doctor on Thursday.
Last thought/question. I had attempted to search out my blog before with various search engines using my name etc and never had any luck. So I felt fairly secure in using my own name and where I'm from. I tried again Saturday (after talking to Mel about others finding your blog) and I found it. Quite quickly. Now looking at this from the point of view of the things I've said about others would I say it to their face. I would like to think that yes I would. Whether we're talking about HS, my mom, or much of anyone else. However it would be really uncomfortable if several of the people such as HS, mom, sister, cousin were to find this blog. I've taken my name off the profile but it's still coming up on a search engine. I have no reason at this time to think that someone has found my blog but still. I'm considering moving it to a different address just for security sake. Not password protected but just move it. Anyone have any thoughts on that??