Ahh, The Weekend.

Thank you for weekends. I spent most of today sleeping and will likely head back to the direction of my bed soon. I hate that transition from nights to days as I'm always so tired the first day. And when you've only got 2 days that doesn't leave much. Work was fairly busy again last night. It went fine, just busy. And you're right B, I'm a little grumpy. I'm just in one of those frames of mind where everything is bugging me. I just feel irritable. The only other times in the past when I have felt like this is when I was on BCP's and when I wasn't taking anti-depressants, usually when first coming off of them. I don't really like feeling like this as I'm guessing I'm not that pleasant to be around. I figure it has to be the meds which again I'll take it if this is what I need to do. The last day or so I have been feeling occasional twinges in my ovary region, hope that means I've got eggies growing. I have a couple of headaches and this morning I noticed feeling bloated again. Otherwise not much. Oh, except (pardon the TMI) my pee smells weird. Kind of metallic like and this morning I got a drop of the G*onal F on my hand and it smelled metallic so that must be the cause. I know that's probably a weird thing to notice. I have my scan on Monday so we'll see how it's going. That will be CD 10 for me. I have no idea when they will do IUI. I think next week may be a bit rough. As much as I was anxious for AF a week and a half ago, it probably would have been better to have been a week later here. I am scheduled to work 60 hours next week with the holiday. Yuck. Paycheck will be nice though. I had to do it that way as I was scheduled for 4 shifts this week but not for Thanksgiving. In order to get the most cash bonus from my agency (which I'm hoping will buy baby furniture) I have to work all 3 holidays. I suppose it didn't have to happen this way and admit I'm a bit greedy but since I'm down here I am trying to make my time count as much as possible. And when I told them to schedule me for 4 a week I thought they would actually schedule me for the holiday.

On another topic, last week I saw on Jenna's blog she had a post where she nominated quite a few people for The Blogger Flame of Fortitude, including me.

I admit that I was surprised to see my name there, and I haven't posted this sooner because I'm not sure I feel like I deserve it. Yes, this whole journey to pregnancy for me hasn't been as easy as I thought it would be but then I was naive enough to think that it would only take one or two tries. And even after I knew I wasn't ovulating very well, I kept trying on my own at home for 3 more tries. I haven't tried nearly as much as many of you in my circle have and I haven't been through as much as many have. So I feel a bit funny posting this. However I was asked to do this and to share it with others so here we go. I would like to nominate everyone on my list but especially B&K, Marci, Rajen, Tracey, Michelle, and Deena. I feel like you all would deserve this so much more than me since it was my reading of your journeys first from a chat board that I found one night while contemplating my idea to be a mom and then by finding your blogs that shared that part of your life that prompted me to blog about my own journey. I love the fact that I have found a group of friends who know what it's like to be where I'm at, who have been through so much. If not for the first people who turned me on to blogging, I never would have found the rest of you who are such a wonderful network of support. I love the fact that in this madness we can still laugh at ourselves and find the humor in most any situation and that even though we haven't met in person and may not we still are friends. Thanks everyone.