So I never was very good at patience

Nope, never was very good at having patience and obviously this is still the case. I'm going to go ahead and give this a shot this month. If it doesn't work, I'm going to try to make myself wait until April for another try, just for the purpose of due dates. I'm due to ovulate on about the first of Feb which of course I work that night and the 2 nights prior to this which means it all should be interesting. I am planning on trying at home. I had originally planned to have Dr. do it as I am spending so much on sperm I want to have the best chance possible, but it's not like I'm wasting my money. People do it at home and get pregnant so it could happen to me too. I could have 1st timers luck. Oh God PLEASE let me have 1st timers luck. So, this gives me a little over 2 weeks to get my stuff together and do all the stuff I figured I had time to do later. I need to wean myself off of caffiene which hopefully shouldn't be too hard as I'm down to one can of pop a day. I also have to wean myself off of my antidepressants. I take one for depression and one to help me sleep but don't want to take either while I'm pregnant. Hopefully I'm close enough to spring that I won't have too bad of a mood crash once I'm not taking them. I won't start turning my second bedroom into a babies room until I am actually pregnant and a little ways along. Moving my desk out of this room will suck as the stupid thing is god awful heavy. I'll keep working on organizing and sorting though. Oh and I think next weekend, I'm going to paint my living room as I want it painted (or at least half of it, I'm doing 2 walls a dark blue) and can't be painting after I'm pregnant. So, I'm trying to keep positive, but yet not get my hopes up too much. Just think though, this time next month, I could be knocked up.