Almost There

I have about 5 more days I figure until I AI. Yeah!!!!!! I'm very excited about that. I usually ovulate around CD 14 and it's CD 9 right now so about 5 days. I scheduled my pick up of my swimmers on the 31st but figure if something happens and I need them sooner all I have to do is call. I did go with the pick up. It would have been easier to just get the dewar (yes Candace, it was our bank NW that was requiring me to pay a 500 dollar deposit to use the dewar) but I don't have 500 dollars to give them so, it will be the ice chest and dry ice. On my next couple nights off that is my goal, to find where I get the dry ice so I will be ready to go. I also plan to do a practice run so to speak just so I can get the feel of the whole process before I go live. Lol. Oh my goodness how goofy this all can be sometimes. I just finished reading "Belly Laughs" by Jenny McCarthy. It was recommended as a real look at your body changes during pregnancy so I ran right out and got it. I really liked it. It was funny and realistic. And a bit scary but then I remember in nursing school when we were doing our OB rotation, thinking that basically the body went to hell in a handbasket during pregnancy. It will still be a kick although there are a few things I hope I don't experience such as the "mask" on your face (forget what it's called).
Well, work for 2 of my 3 nights was kind of horrible. Fussy babies in isolation for a contagious stuff so it required gown, gloves etc to go in the room and she wanted to be held all night and I was roasting in the gown and gloves. Fairly big med error which I cried about and the doctor felt so bad she hugged me and told me it was ok, the med I gave wouldn't hurt the baby and might even help. I also spent a fair amount of time crying otherwise just about everything. Yes, I know that this is likely mostly due to my being off my anti depressants. Everything that seemed bad before, seemed SOOO much worse the last few nights. Finally the last night my supervisor put me in the intermediate nursery (not so sick, fairly stable babies) and I was in a better frame of mind. I also had a good chat with my assistant nurse manager and told her how I had been feeling. She said they would back off on pushing me to take sicker babies for a while and asked me to keep her updated on everything. So, that's a relief. At least next week I will probably not be as stressed at work (the week I'm doing my AI) and that should help a lot. I also have several jobs I am going to apply for. It bugs me a little that I am choosing jobs based on how much it pays but such is life. I'm also hoping that after a few weeks of being off my anti depressants, my moods will even out some and not be so horribly down. And really hoping the weather will start turning nice SOON. I'm so sick of cold, dreary and gray. I actually slept pretty good today which is a first since I stopped taking my other med that helps me sleep which is good to. Being tired certainly doesn't help the situation. So, after a not so good week, I ended up feeling like somethings had definitely been "fixed" and I'm feeling better. I'm also getting excited about the whole AI process and the idea that this time next month, I could be pregnant.