Delurking, Harry Potter and Stuff

So Mel pointed out that this is blog delurking week.  I'm honestly curious if there is much of anyone still out there.  I don't get many comments anymore but then I've been fairly bad the last year or more about blogging, commenting etc myself so I can't say much.
She had prompted readers to leave a comment with maybe what Harry Potter character your most like.  The very first response the popped into my head was Snape since I'm not sure if many people know who I really am at all.  Mel sent me a very sweet e-mail back which will probably sit in my inbox for a while. I tend to do that.  When I get messages that make me feel good I leave them where I can reread them. 
The thing about my comment though feels so true, especially right now.  There are those who have read my blog in the past that probably know more about me than people I interact with on a daily basis.  I feel like there are so few people in my life who truly know me and accept me and all my little faults or quirks or whatever. This is sometimes so incredibly frustrating as I feel like I'm always keeping my mouth shut and trying not to create disharmony or confrontation.  Some of this is my overwhelming fear of confrontation and my fear of not being able to back up my beliefs.  I know I believe Obama was the best choice for president for so many reasons but I fear not being able to factually back up that belief.  Which is a fairly rational fear since I don't watch a lot of news or read news papers etc.  I just know that the other side stood for or supported so much that I didn't believe in. So in the 6 months or so leading up to the election and to some extent since then I've scrolled past all of the posts on Facebook that drive me nuts and I've refrained from being another one of those to throw up all of the opposite stuff because that's not what I go to Facebook for. I go to Facebook to connect with friends and relatives that I don't often connect with otherwise.  It just starts to feel sometimes though like I'm not sure I want to connect with some of these people anymore.  Which maybe means I should drastically shorten my friends list or just step away.
I'm also dealing with an acquaintance/friend that I don't quite know what to do with. She's a co-worker who I started off spending time with due to one common interest.  Turns out that we don't really have many other common interests. There have been things said that seriously bothered me, I blogged about one of them a couple of weeks ago and I want to vent but yet I know that I shouldn't blog about something I'm not willing to say to her face.  Basically I'll leave it at I don't know what to do with the friendship.  She is wanting a lot more of my time and space than I feel willing to give and I don't know how to deal with it.  Partially because I suck at standing up for myself and confrontation.
Then there's Harry Potter.  Mel has been talking about Harry Potter a lot lately and Pottermore which I have avoided as I probably really don't need something else to waste time on. I have homework (which I really have no desire to do), I have a ton of quilting projects to work on, start, finish etc that I could be doing.  So I don't need more distractions.  However I have noticed in the past a tendency towards avoidance when it comes to depression.  When I'm down and having a hard time I tend to bury myself in books. Books that I know will make me feel good.  Hence Harry Potter.  Frequently if I'm feeling down I start rereading the Harry Potter books.  It's a coping mechanism and maybe not the best one but hey, for now it works. 
Don't worry, I have a doctors appointment in a couple of weeks where I plan to discuss the fact that the prozac just doesn't feel like it's working all that well any more. Yes I am aware that this can be hormonal as I just threw myself into a surgically induced menopause a little over a month ago but the general feelings of down or sad or disinterest or whatever have been going on for a while.  Granted they're worse now but it's been at least since October. 
There's so much more bouncing around in my head right now but I think this is getting awfully serious for just a delurking post to say hey, is anyone still out there?