Invited

Today at work during lunch one of the nurses mentioned that a group of them were going out for dinner tonight at a local place and asked if I wanted to come along. I said sure I'd love to, figured out where and when etc. There were about 10 or so of us there and it was a great time. We all visited and laughed and had a lot of fun. They are a great group of women to work with. And it felt fabulous to be included. At the risk of sounding really high-schoolish lately I've been feeling really left out. Which to some extent I realize doesn't make much sense. In my previous position there were a lot of people from the recover area who got together to do stuff on a regular basis and they'd all be talking about going some where or something and it used to sort of bug me that no one ever invited me. There were some of the people from surgery who did invite me to breakfast and I do sometimes still go with them when it fits with my work schedule. I know that it is sort of stupid to feel bad about not being included since many of the ones who were getting together I really didn't like and didn't really want to be around any more than I had to. There were still those though who I did like and it just felt sometimes like I was always on the outside looking in. For the most part I didn't really focus on it and I'm pretty good at entertaining myself and so it's not like I was dying of loneliness but it just felt a bit like I didn't have much of anyone here. So being included today while it is a small thing felt really good. It's a group of women that I like working with. I also enjoyed their company outside of work. Plus it was nice to dress up a little (other than sitting home in my pajamas) and go doing something even if it did mean getting pink (pasta) sauce all over my shirt (damn).