Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Did You Know
I've heard others talk about the feelings that arise in them when catching a glimpse of their medical chart and reading whatever the actual diagnosis is. The medical community has both a gift and a curse in the ability to tell it like it is and in "naming" a condition in such a true but yet brutal manner. I know the first time I saw morbid obesity on my chart I wanted to puke. Even seeing it on my RE's chart made me feel like I was undeserving, that I was too fat to have children. Yes, I'm aware that to a very large extent those feelings are my own psychosis or demons or whatever you want to call them. Today I saw a diagnosis in a chart that felt totally wounding to me and it wasn't even my chart. I'm sure the patient felt nothing other than relief that it would soon change. Diagnosis: Undesired fertility. Ouch. Of course after having 7 children maybe I'd feel that way too. Still I felt that ever present little stab of envy asking once again how some can have so much, even to the point of more than they want and yet others have none. The age old question that comes with no answers and even more with no logic or sense.
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9 comments:
ouch, indeed.
Yeah, that is so tough to see comments like that about yourself. I think I'd feel the same way you do about that lady. It just seems that some people have so much. It's hard to have perspective when its something that you yourself want so badly.
Yes, no justice..
OUCH! That is something I will never see on my chart!
{{{Hugs}}}
It's a diagnosis my mother had, and my grandmother, and great-grandmother. Kind of interesting juxtaposed next to mine.
hugs
that's a tough one
Yes, Ouch. It's not fair. I still have the long heartache-fullness...(its now a word..lol) to carry a baby and cant. Its not fair.
You are right - the medical community has the ability to be painfully blunt. I'll never forget standing in line to pay a bill with "Habitual Aborter" checked on my sheet.
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