All Is Well, Mostly

Well, I am doing pretty well now. Thank you so much everyone for your wonderful words of support and offers of listening ears. I found myself all teary several times yesterday at everyone's kindness. I will program all those phone numbers into my phone so if I should ever again have need of a kind voice, I will call. I got a call from Employee health this morning. The source patient tested negative for everything. No HIV, Hep B or C. I'm good. And I feel so much better. Hope has shown back up and is resting mostly quietly and trying to hide from obsession. I'm trying not to think about the possibility that I might be pregnant. I'm trying not to think about how I would tell everyone and how I would feel at that moment I found out. I'm basically trying not to think about it at all. Even though I'm still temping. Which my temps are good but I'm pretty sure that's because of good old prometrium. It's funny though. I am taking the prometrium but I still don't notice much of the signs others have mentioned such as sore boobs etc. I'm not really feeling much of anything. And I'm trying not to think about that either. I went and looked at apartments yesterday. I found 2 I liked. One I liked and it had a washer/dryer but seemed a little overly expensive. The other was cheaper, cheaper than what I'm paying now and includes cable TV and a garage but doesn't have a washer/dryer. It does have laundry rooms that are really close by though and ponds every where with ducks. See I'm thinking of the enjoyment of my girlies. Of course it would have to be more supervised after Sara's effort to fly like a bird. They are both in better areas of town too. But then I wonder, if I am going to consider an apartment without a washer and dryer so I can save money, should I look for something even less expensive so that I really save money. I do have several days to think about it still.
Now, I'm thinking maybe I'll take a nap. That sounds good.