Tis The Season

For holiday parties.  In the past I have always loved holiday parties. Lately though I find it difficult to force myself to take part and socialize.  Taking part when you don't know anyone? Sort of like torture. This year there were a couple holiday parties. One is a big corporate thing that I'm told is a dressy event. The other was just a unit event done by the doctors on our unit.  The big dressy event I've pretty much said no thank you. I don't have proper attire for it, I don't love clothes shopping and I spent nearly everything available on the car. The smaller event I did figure it would be good for me to go. It was good to go and to meet people and visit.  The first hour was torture but it did get better and I did notice that a lot of people made an effort to talk to me which was appreciated. It strikes me though that I'm not entirely sure how I went from being a very outgoing social person when I was younger to a very introverted and rather untrusting person I am now. 

All I know is I'm home now in my jammies with kitties on my lap and so much more comfortable.