Better

Many thanks to everyone for the words of comfort. I did appreciate it. I ended up giving Lily away on Monday. It was a very hard decision but I believe it was the right one.  The person who took her is the manager of the doggy daycare I had been taking her too so she knew Lily. She had also kept Lily overnight for me once so she knew that Lily and her dog got along great and that was a very good thing for her as her dog had been fearful of other dogs in the past.  In addition to that she takes her dogs to work with her every day.  I stopped in this morning to drop off Lily's vet records and Lily got excited to see me but would not focus on one thing and stay focused. It's hard to explain but it felt even more clear to me I'd made the right decision.  I've been able to sleep this week and not feel drained when I go to work which considering that I'm orienting to NICU and therefore taking care of very sick patients is an awesome thing. When I'm at work I need to be fully there and focused, not wiped out from lack of sleep.