My Body Is Making Me Crazy

Yes, it is. Totally nuts. So I mentioned last week that my cycles have been wonky since my IVF last November. Someone I think Kristen? Pointed out that once in a while ovulation can happen at odd times or something to that effect. It got me thinking that maybe the CM that showed up right after my period a couple weeks ago was actually pre-ovulation CM and that the cramping I had at work that one night may have been ovulation. I was right. Cause guess who showed up today a mere 17 days after her last arrival? Yup. AF. Bitch. Cause once a month isn't bad enough. And wouldn't you figure I have a gyn appointment on Tuesday. What I am sort of thinking now though is that maybe I didn't ovulate last month since I don't remember ever having the CM show up. So my period seems to have happened sort of on it's own. Then again, 11 days after ovulation which is a short luteal phase for me. I think that maybe this is my bodies way of saying I'm getting older. It does make me more comfortable with my decision to not cycle again with my own eggs. It would be interesting to know what my FSH is right now though. Maybe I'll ask the doc to check it.
Which means that donor eggs or donor embryos it will be. For sure. Funny thing is that as of right now this doesn't bother me. I don't really care about the genetic link as much as I care about having a newborn. I want to experience that. All of it. The part that I still have a hard time with is the idea of the cost involved with donor eggs and how long I'll have to save to go that route. I haven't looked in to other countries much yet and will down the road some but it still feels overwhelming. For the donor embryos I mentioned that I had my name put on the list at my doctors office. Many of the other offices I checked in to that have donor embryo lists want you to be a patient which means booking an appointment, traveling to wherever the clinic is and paying a fairly large consult fee to get on the list. I'm not really jumping on that one yet as it seems like it could get pretty expensive. I found one place that seems to be a forum where you can register and try to meet others who either have or are looking for donor embryos. I'm still thinking about that one but again there is a cost associated with it and while it's only a one time cost and not super high ($100) I still haven't decided if I want to sign up. I've had someone ask about whether I'd be interested in donor embryos with an open or semi open relationship. I hadn't thought of it a lot but I would consider that too. I don't know how likely it is. I think it would depend on the getting to know process. I don't quite know how that would go. Still, I'm willing to consider it. From one stand point having an open relationship of any sort would be able to provide information to any children at a later date even if it didn't mean extended family. I guess it's a wait and see thing. Who knows. I suppose anything's possible.
As far as my healthy activities go? I did 7 minutes on Friday night and again on Saturday night. Right now my back muscles especially right between my shoulder blades are sore. I'll give it another go again tonight. Next goal is 10 minutes. I can do it. I just hope some of the muscle soreness afterwards starts to get better soon.
Ok I have a problem too. I got a new lap top a couple weeks ago and have finally just gotten everything switched over to it. Well somewhere on the screen or on the key pad or something I keep hitting something that is shrinking my text on the screen. It's affecting mostly g-mail but is affecting everything else too. I can't hardly read my e-mail. Oh and the dumb thing downloaded IE 8 last night and now that's making things weird too. If anyone knows how to enlarge my text and or to quit making it smaller (I've tried the page tab at the top) could you please let me know? I hate it when I can't figure out what I did. Never mind. I figured out how to make it normal size again. Still not sure how I shrunk it in the first place but it's back to normal.