Nothing much new is going on with me these days. Working lots and trying to get my Christmas baking/candy making done. I've got most of it done so I just need to finish tonight. I finally got a pattern that showed ovulation on my fertility friend chart (I finally remembered to almost always take my temperature when I woke up) and although I of course forgot a temp on a fairly crucial day and therefore it shows the wrong date for ovulation, I at least feel better that I am ovulating. Part of my issue is the whole idea that being overweight affects fertility and can cause problems with conceiving which of course has me worried. I don't know for sure though why I'm worried as I've never really felt like there was a problem but I've never tried getting pregnant either. I have always been super regular with my periods and since I started becoming aware of what the stuff was that showed up every month for about a week (cervical mucus) I've been pretty aware of the 5 day time frame of when I ovulate. Of course, now that I'm charting it all, it's giving me an even more concrete concept of the actual time, down to about 24 hours. I guess I was still worried though that even though I was having the cervical mucus, and even though I had a peak on my cbfm and on answer opks, that for some reason all this stuff was happening even though I may not actually be ovulating. It worried me and still does some that a couple different opks haven't worked for me at all and I've never gotten a positive with them. I guess I will just stick to buying the answer ones. And the cbfm. I do really think now that I am ovulating normally so hopefully it will all go well. I can't wait to actually start trying.
I've also heard back from a few of my relatives that I sent my Christmas letter to. So far I've gotten one neutral reaction, one person who didn't say anything about it and one really positive reaction. My aunt A. thought it was great. Funny thing is (or maybe not so funny) that I haven't heard a THING from my mom. I'm not expecting her to be happy about it or supportive of it but I know she had to have received my letter by now. The thing that gets me is that if she objects to my plans it's because she thinks its wrong for me to be pregnant while I'm single. Several years ago when I was still trying to make her happy and living my life by her rules, I thought about adopting and she was totally supportive of that. I am sort of anxious to know what her reaction is.
Something weird happened tonight and I don't know if I did the right thing. I went to Albertsons @ 12:30am (middle of the night) and as I was walking in, a guy was walking out and sort of looked at me strange. I figured it was because I was walking into the store in my pajamas. I smiled and went in to get what I needed. When I came out, this truck (huge truck requiring parachutes to get out of) waits for me to cross in front of the store and then I hear someone saying "hey, what's going on" I turned around and it was the guy I saw going into the store. He asked me if I had a number and said he had seen me and liked the way I looked. My first thought was why. I told him no and thanked him for the compliment. Then I wondered if maybe I should have been more open to possibilities. The problem is that I can't remember the last time a guy has noticed me (years literally) and I felt like what kind of guy are you going to meet in a grocery store parking lot in the middle of the night in your pajamas. I suppose he could have been a nice guy but he could have been a creep too. I kind of felt like maybe I should have been more open to possibilities but then I've gotten so used to the idea of doing the single mother thing, that I don't know if I want someone else in my way right now. And besides he could have been a creep. Just a weird thing I guess and I'll never know.
Well, I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and I hope there's lots of BFP's to come for all my NW buddies. By the way, the chatboard is driving me nuts because everytime I try to post something, it takes forever and then it gives me an error message and doesn't post my comment!!!
6 comments:
Good morning,
I wanted to thank you for posting your cheapie OPK opinion on my blog. Im so upset that I might have to miss this month and ship my spermmies back due to those dumb things. I will continute to test today though and maybe by some miracle things will change.
And the thing with the "creep" you ran into, I would have done the same thing as you did!
Have a good day!
The charting thing is hard. I hate BBT although i think it is so good for O time i hate waking up to take it on the weekends! Anyway what i wanted to say is way to go on the charting!
-C
I can't wait til you start "trying" either!! It's a nail-biter all the way up until you just do it. And then a nail-biter of a different sort while you wait for the results!
The guy in the parking lot? Hard to say. Your gut is probably right on. But I, like you, would have totally second-guessed myself... maybe I shoulda... Probably not.
I can't wait until you start trying either... did you decide for sure when that will be?
I hope you are enjoying the holiday season!
I'm still figuring on late April. Depending on my cycle. That seems so far away although I know it will go quickly.
Michell....isn't it something we really don't realize what our body does each month until we watch everything so closely. Until I started charting, allthough i knew all about cycles etc just due to Biology...I never thought about my own CM, temp, etc. No I am a little crazy in this department...checking things 2 & 3 times.
Merry Christmas my dear, Try not to work too hard right now, enjoy some "you" time.
Hugs & Sweet Baby Dreams!
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