So Much

I have so many things rolling around in my head now that I feel a desire to post about. Yet I don't know how to formulate it out into a cohesive post that isn't book length. In addition to that along with my feelings of violation that I've dealt with in my personal life thanks to the break in a few weeks ago I don't really feel safe on line right now either. My laptop that was taken had my entire life on it. Everything. I've applied all the necessary flags to credit reports etc although I'm guessing if they tried to open a line of credit anywhere other than some rent-a-center sort of place that they were sorely disappointed. However it also had some VERY personal stuff on it as well. It had a journal that I had kept years ago that granted I hadn't wrote on in a very long time but it's there. It also had links to my blog and many of my on line accounts. I've of course changed all my passwords etc but that doesn't mean that they can't see anything if they're looking. I do understand that logically as soon as they got what they wanted off my laptop (my SSN which was in last years tax info that was on my computer) they likely wiped everything and have since sold my computer but there is this fear that they are watching and waiting to break in again. I went out of town this last week and I had a hard time posting anything on FB about it while I was gone and there is no way I would have posted anything about it here. I keep thinking "What if they are watching my blog to see if I've replaced stuff and when I'm not home so they can come back?" I do understand that this isn't entirely logical as why would they bother with that when I haven't posted all that much in the last year and all but the thoughts are there. I know what if's are wasted energy but the thought is still there. I've considered going password protect for a while until I feel more comfortable. I don't love that idea but yet I don't really feel safe here.

I'm still here for now. I'm doing fine. I have a new fur baby that I've been posting lots of pics of on FB. Work has been busy but otherwise life is mostly good if a little overwhelming and confusing sometimes.