So I'm on my five day off stretch from work. I love this part. I hate the part of going back and working 5 in a row. In addition to that in the next 2 weeks I'm picking up 3 extra shifts (36 hours) as the person who does the job on my nights off is going on vacation. I figured I could use the extra money and I was planning on going home or to Seattle at the end of April since a friend is supposed to be having surgery. Now everything is totally up in the air about when and what sort of surgery so I'm not sure if I'm going. Plus I also realized that it's much harder to take off for a few days now that I have Sadie here and needing medication twice a day. Still haven't figured that one out. I have figured out that it's official. I now have 2 animals that pee in the house. Ugg. At least I'm thankful for the non carpeted floors even if I don't like them. Sara has been doing pretty good with the exception of the occasional puddle on the dog bed. However it starts with Sadie's puddle on the dog bed. The only thing I can figure is that the medication causes increased thirst (along with the increased hunger) and increased urination. Factor that in with the fact that she's nine years old and I'm guessing that holding it 14 hours like she used to is a bit beyond her ability. I feel bad for her but I'm having a difficult time adjusting to this new need of keeping track of the bathroom habits of yet another animal.
Work is work. I like my job really well. Coworkers not so much. I'm having a hard time with it. I've got one charge nurse who I don't work with often but when I do she feels she has to prove to me that she is my superior and spends the entire night telling me what to do and when to do it and basically drives me nuts. The other charge nurse is easier to get along with but she's subtle in her BS. She's the one who is constantly talking about everyone else, bad mouthing them etc. She says things on a fairly regular basis to let me know that she thinks I'm a loser because I don't have an active social life like she does. The thing about this is that one, I know I'm not a loser and I'm pretty happy with things the way they are. I don't feel a need to go out all the time. I also know that she's basically a witch and that she's not someone I really would like to hang around with anyways. That said it's still sort of difficult to be around her and put up with her shit. I know that whole thing about being professional and it's a job and who cares if your coworkers like you etc but it's still difficult to look forward to going to work when you work with people you really don't like.
Today I bought a bathing suit. Got it online which I know probably isn't the best plan but it's the only one I could find that I like and I'm usually pretty comfortable with this companies sizing as I've bought from them before. It seriously just about killed me to pay $70 for a freaking bathing suit. Then I thought about it and realized the last bathing suit I purchased was in 1997 which was 12 years ago. So I know it's not that bad to pay that much if it's going to last another 5-10 but it still sucks.
I still don't know what my next step is. I want to try again really bad. I'm trying to figure out how to come up with the money part of trying again. I'm also working on getting on some lists for donor embryos. We'll see what happens first. I also can sit here and think about what my life would be like if it was just me and no baby. And I can see it. Which I suppose tells me that if it never happens I'll be ok. Even happy maybe. Maybe not as happy as I would be if I had a baby but happy anyways.
So that's the last week for me. Lots of other things but just the mundane things in life. Like watching the last episode of my favorite show ever. The show that I have seen almost every episode of since the beginning. I'll miss ER. Work things about the patients I care for that for whatever reason touch my life in some way. Just the stuff of life.
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Snotty co-workers make the day drag. I tell people, I'm happy with my life if you don't like it then stop minding my business. Maybe she'll bugger off and leave you alone. I hope you're able to finance another try soon. As for a bathing suit, my last one was bought in 2006 and I think I destroyed the pictures of me in it. The last time I looked good in a suit was 1986. ugg
I want you to try again, too. You deserve this so much and it hurts me. Love ya sweetie.
Thanks for all your information. It was very interesting. ((HUGS))
Hard stuff. Typing this on my iTouch, so tough to comment on everything, but hoping you can join me on the donor embie bandwagon soon.
I'm sorry you have to deal with those coworkers. It is really awful to have to deal with people like that day in and day out. I am sure having several days off in a row is really helpful but it makes it that much harder to want to go back, knowing what is waiting you there.
Maybe you can get a dog walking company to come in and give Sadie potty breaks. I have someone come by between 1 and 2 everyday to give Charlie a short walk and some attention. She is a little thing so she needs frequent potty breaks. The company I use charges $8 for a potty break and $12 for a 25 minute walk.
Bathing suits make me want to bury my head in the sand! The one I have now is ridiculous and I hate wearing it but I hate trying them on at the store. I hope yours fits and works out for another 12 years!
Coworker drama is always so exhausting: We finally just fired the temp that was seriously pissing everyone off.
I haven't bought a bathing suit in I don't know how long...I refuse to pay what they want. I think the last one I got was from kohls on clearance for $30...and it's nothing to write home about.
Have you thought about boarding Sadie with the vet? I know our vet's office offers that service to clients.
Thinking of you and hoping that whatever you decide in terms of moving forward that it brings you much happiness and peace. ((LOTS OF HUGS))
I'm trying to head up north at the end of April. It would be nice if we could get together if we are at the same place at the same time.
I got a really nice complement the other day on the blanket you made Egg!
I hope you get to try again.
And, I'm with you on missing ER. This final season was incredible.
I know what you mean about bitchy nurses. I've decided it is because we work such long shifts and are trapped together with the same people, there is nothing else to do but talk. Unfortunantly, that usually turns to talking about other people.
Bah. Our hospital is going through an especially catty and gossipy phase right now and it is killing me.
5 days on and 5 days off has got to be killer for the feet. I could never do more than 2 shifts in a row without a break.
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